Tomorrow she turns two…

I am not ready for my baby to be 2…

She always was my final baby, but soon to be a ‘baby’ no more. She started standing and walking before she was 1, so really she’s been a toddler for a long time already.

She is a whirlwind, this final baby of mine. She has never slept in her cot, and has once, once… settled herself to sleep without boobs in the last 2 years. She starts every night snuggled up to me, and I attempt to get her onto her mattress for the duration… inevitably she ends up back in my arms at least once in the night.

So unlike my first, who took to her cot at 6 months in her own room, without too much drama. My first who decided on her own terms that she was done with boobs at 13 months versus my last who still feeds at night, no doubt for comfort alone… yet won’t cuddle unless half asleep.

Both girls, both parented the same, so completely different.

#thisistwo

The countdown…

Ok so the time is creeping and creeping closer, 2 weeks tomorrow and I shall be going under the knife for my gastric sleeve. After the time was moving so slowly a few weeks ago and I was counting 63, 62, 61… now I am days away. I have taken steps to prepare myself for the liver reduction diet, so that they can work around it laparoscopically. I have been doing my actidiet low calorie diet this week; 3 sachets and a low carb meal in the evenings. Ironically actidiet is too low in calories with the 100% VLCD diet for the liver reduction diet, so I am going to do 3-4 sachets and a meal for the next two weeks.

I have even taken to doing some freezer prep, I have cooked and pureed some food into ice cube trays and stored, so that I have some ready for after the op. I will be doing a month liquids, a month puree and a month soft food before moving onto normal food in very small quantities.
I have spoken with the dietician, who is the same lady that prepared me 5 years ago for the gastric bypass that I was bullied out of, and she has approved my plans, pre op, she will also come and see me on the ward to talk me through moving forward after the op. Plus as with anyone who is having this kind of thing I have done hours of research, as a good friend just said “You’ve got this”… I just have to keep positive and keep up with the personal pep-talks. I’ll be on real food again at the end of Jan, and I am so looking forward to not being able to eat over Christmas! It’s hell for someone like me…. Food everywhere and with no ‘natural stopping mechanism’ I spend the whole time feeling bloated, sick and full of rubbish, not to mention gaining many many lbs, this time though I will be feeling bloated, sick and full…. But for a better reason; weaning my micro tum.

My only wish is that I am one of those people post op that exclaims how much they love their sleeve!

I have my pre op appointment a week on Monday and I think that will be the day when I start to get nervous but I have an awesome fella supporting me and some cracking friends and colleagues supporting me.

“Don’t think of it as going without cake, think of it as you’ve already had more cake than most people eat in a lifetime so you’ve had your quota.”
Adele’s Dad… Via Adele…